I looked forward to the spring and summer...the warm weather, the summer activities...a change, something new, different.  The warm weather snuck up on me, it is here.  Some days I can get into the moment...the smell, the feel, the sounds...But most days I have felt strange...confused....weird....discontent.  

I guess I keep expecting some drastic change to occur outside of me and then the light bulb will flash on.  OHHHH this is what I am supposed to be doing...but then I slouch down realizing this is not going to happen.  That again I am waiting...as time slips out of my hands.  Weeks seem to fly by and before ya know it I am looking forward to fall...to cool weather, football...Again looking in the wrong place for something I have right inside of me.  The Choice to be happy...be content..be grateful..be appreciative, all of these things are Inside of ME. 

It's strange how when I do the things that make me feel good and the payoff is so worth it...that it still seems difficult to do these things.  Why do I feel more attracted to the negative energy, bitching, complaining, gossiping...ugh.  I know when I fall into this behavior that it just builds and in the long run makes me feel worse.  It's the same with taking good physical care of myself.  Even tho it makes me feel better it is so easy to stop...easier to make excuses.

For today I am making a commitment to look at the positive.  To say 3 things that I am grateful for and to do one thing I want to do for me...just for me...for Today.

Grateful for this website!  (#1) :)  xoxo